When she was 14, Chiquis says she cut school early one day, and when she got home, Jenni asked her, “You want me to whoop your ass, or do you want a different punishment?” after which she proceeded to cut off all her hair. Though Chiquis describes her mother as loving and sweet, she says there was also a side to her that was severe, especially when it came to disciplining her children. Jenni and Chiquis had more than one major fallout. Jenni Rivera’s Daughter ‘Chiquis’ Debuts Song In Honor of Her Late MomĤ. “Obviously I like men and I know that now,” added Chiquis, who has been in an on-again, off-again relationship with a Latin music executive whom she chooses not to name in her book. “It was very innocent, but I really did think I was in love at the time.” “Because I never told her my secret she couldn’t understand it,” said Chiquis in the interview. In an interview with Maria Celeste Arraras of Al Rojo Vivo, Chiquis expanded on this stage of her life, saying that at one point she thought she had romantic feelings for her female best friend - apparently Jenni knew and strongly disapproved. “Would I become so promiscuous that I wouldn’t be able to maintain an exclusive relationship, or would I instead become completely celibate and alone? That’s how terrified I was by even the thought of being touched, regardless of whether it was by a man or a woman.” “I would question myself as to whether I was gay or straight,” she writes in the book, attributing that period of confusion during her adolescence to the abuse she suffered. At one point, Chiquis thought she was gay.Īnother revelation that may shock readers is that there was a time when Chiquis thought she liked women. And you can learn to love again if you can learn to forgive.”ģ. You can regain trust, if you put your trust in God. “She would touch me, and she asked me to touch and stimulate her…Until one day she didn’t ask me to play anymore and the afternoons spent in the corners disappeared, along with that abusive woman.”Ĭhiquis states that she is sharing this painful truth so “other victims of abuse can read about my mistakes and fears and see that it’s possible to overcome them, as hollow as that phrase might sound. “This woman would come up to me and say, ‘Let’s play house.’ I was nine, and just getting used to the games my father forced upon me. It was just so confusing to be doubly victimized,” reveals Chiquis. “This is something I haven’t confessed to any of the seemingly thousands of psychologists whom I saw during my teenage years, nor the doctors who treated me after the scandal with my father, nor the pastor of any church during my deepest spiritual crisis,” she writes.Ĭhiquis goes on to say that her own mother died without knowing this secret. Although she doesn’t reveal the woman’s name, Chiquis explains that it happened around the same time that she was being abused by her father. In what she considers to be her most closely guarded secret, Chiquis reveals that she was also molested by a woman. Nowadays, Chiquis says has no contact with him whatsoever.Ĭhiquis Rivera Launches Webseries, Site Crashes Due to Overwhelming Demand After a prolonged investigation and a subsequent trial in which Chiquis testified against her father, he was sentenced to life in prison. “For what he did to me as a little girl, I forgave him a thousand times. But it would be a betrayal of my mother if I sought out the friendship of a man who never even sent me a message of condolence ,” writes Chiquis, who spoke out about the abuse in 1997. Chiquis recalls in the book: “My father would take advantage of those weekends, exploiting my silence more and more while simultaneously becoming ever more aggressive. His growing boldness translated into longer, more fearsome and more painful sessions for me. All I remember is closing my eyes, tensing up my arms and thinking: ‘If I don’t put up too much of a fight, then he’ll be done with me sooner.'”ĭespite the abuse, Chiquis, now 29, says that she doesn’t feel hatred toward her father.
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